the main thing causing me to be such a desperate, needy faggot is that for the most part, i've always just gone with girls who were interested in me first, so i never really had to try. this situation is quite new and unfamiliar for me. and i've been lonely and depressed for a long goddamn time now, so i totally feel like rushing into something. whereas she is recently single, balancing a busy life, and is not looking for anything serious.
this thread has helped me see the error of my faggotry though, and i appreciate all of your input.